Poetry submitted by Carol on Friday, March 18, 2005 at 10:19AM :

As we come upon the anniversary of your demise,
I stand at your grave with tears in my eyes,
consumed by my grief.

So many unanswered questions
I will forever seek.

Why didn’t you reach out
to family and friends,
instead of choosing your life to end?

What could be so terrible on that day,
that you would choose to go away?

How could you but that gun to your head
and fill our hearts with such dread?

Why that day of April 13th
with so much forthcoming to celebrate?
Our 40th Birthday, Dianna’s too,
your God Daughters Baptism and Rob’s graduation day.
You robbed us of our joy on that relentless day.

Was it the stress of your job that made you stop caring
or something from your past you were afraid of sharing?

Why didn’t you know,
there was nothing you could possibly say or do
that would ever change our unconditional love for you.

I guess we’ll never know what pulled you down so deep,
Only you know that secret,
which is now yours to keep.

I am trying to except
the what’s why’s and how’s we will never know,
but I have one last question to ask of thee.
Has death truly set you free?

Please give me an answer, some sort of sign,
so I may rest my head and find inner peace.