Poetry submitted by MMF on Friday, October 24, 2003 at 7:51AM :

It is late at night
Shining stars are angel eyes
Looking at the darkness fade
Into my lonely soul
Aimed a single shot
To end his life and stop his pain
On December seventeenth
But he will always be a friend to me

The hope I had inside
Is now a dreaded fear that I despise
And I am left behind by him
And my friends who could not see
What his suicide did to me
He killed two hearts on that night
A shot that traveled
Across the telephone wires

And I love you still
Winter months turn a first year
I walk the beach and feel the chill
It is in my soul
Pain and shame and endless guilt
Still run through out my veins

And the shining stars are angel eyes
Trying hard to guide me by the light
But sometimes I look away
I don’t deserve the sight
That would heal my broken wings
Make me want to fly again

I deserve to be right here
Because Hell, it exists on this earth
I’ll walk along the sand and
Every now and then, glance towards
The shining stars, the angel eyes
Because maybe one will be his light

I miss my friend
MMF