Joshua Robert Howard
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Joshua Robert Howard

02/01/85-07/21/06

"Love of mine, someday you will die, but ill be close behind ill follow you into the dark no blinding light or tunnels to gates of white just our hands clasped so tight waiting for a hint of a spark if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied illuminate the Nos on their vacancy signs if theres no one beside you when your soul embarks ill follow you into the dark in catholic school as viscious as roman rule i got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black i held my tongue as she told me son fear is the heart of love so i never went back if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied illuminate the nos on their vacancy signs if there is no one beside you when your soul embarks ill follow you into the dark
you and me have seen everything to see from bancock to calgary and the souls of your shoes are all worn down time for sleep is now its nothing to cry about because we'll hold each other soon in the blackest of rooms. If heaven and hell deicdie that they both are satisfied illuminate the nos on their vacancy signs if there is no one beside you when your soul embarks ill follow you into the dark"

Joshua Robert Howard

Joshua Robert Howard, 21, died July 21, 2006, in Ketchikan. He was born Feb. 1, 1985 in Ketchikan. He attended White Cliff Elementary School, Schoenbar Middle School, Ketchikan High School and Revilla High School before earning a GED.

He lived in Ketchikan until 2003, after which he moved to Juneau until his return to Ketchikan in March.

He enjoyed skateboarding, fishing, camping and hiking, as well as playing video games with his friends, his family writes.

He is preceded in death by his grandfather, Harold R. Howard Jr.; uncle, Gerald L. Howard; and grandfather, Robert Welliver.

He is survived by his father, Terrill L. Howard of Ketchikan; mother, Stacy Welliver Chiapella of Atascadero, Calif.; grandmother, Connie L. Howard of Ketchikan; grandmother, Norma Barnard of Boise, Idaho; and brother, Corey R. Howard of Tallahassee, Fla.; as well as numerous aunts, uncles and cousins.

A remembrance of life service will be held at a later date.



My Dearest Joshua,

They say suicide is painless, it brings about many changes....it was truly painless for you and the thought that it brings changes is ringing true for those of us you left behind. I'm sad for the loss of your life and the potential you had to make the best of it, i'm mad that you left us in such a selfish way because its hard to know your gone. I guess what kills me the most is the old saying "you don't know what you've got till' its gone" I didn't realize I was still so deeply in love with you...and i know you loved me too i'm sad we let the beautiful love we had go.....it was hard losing the baby and your addictions and mine were out of control so we lost our love in the chaos of it all. I'm sorry for not appreciating your tender love when you were here...i will never take it for granted if i experience it again....im sad you let darkness prevail in your life the way you did at the end of your rope....i know you are in a better place now ...God has given me signs of great hope that you are waiting for me and the others that loved you so dearly on the other side...take care of our child for me until i get there....my work here isn't done...you were beautiful inside and out...you will always be my wooshie and there will always be a huge place in my heart for you....in heaven we will rejoice that the pain and suffering is all over....ill see you there my love. Forever your memory will live on in my mind, heart and soul.


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