Lucas is the youngest of four children. He was warm, sharing, full of fun and mischief. He graduated from Saint James High School in 1998 and spent a year at Lawrencville School in New Jersey as a post graduate football player. He then entered Auburn University in Auburn, Alabama in September 1999.
"I would never intentionally hurt someone- unless it was- you know-a league game or something" - Dick Butkis" Lucas's HS senior quote
He had everything going for him; family support, friends, opportunities,education and he choose to take drugs instead of living life to the fullest. I write these words hoping that some young person will read them and understand your parents fears and warnings about drugs, alcohol, and any other addictions that alter your ablity to think and live.
Lucas, like most other young people, thought he was in control and experimented with alcohol, pot and other drugs....I'm his mother so I don't know them all but he lost control and he sucumb to the depression that sets in with drug abuse.
I put him in rehab once and took him to one-on-one phychactric counseling.. all to no avail. He would not admit to himself that he had a problem through the last two/three years of his life and would not ask for help... and resisted any help anyone tried to give him. I have come to believe that there are certain personalities that cannot handle alcohol and/or drugs and still function at all. I know that the majority of addicted people seem to function even while additcted... go to work, and maintain a life. But there are those that can't do that and they just stop doing anything... except taking/using to avoid thinking about doing something and they just sink into oblivion....
They may live for years that way I'm sure... but Lucas could not live that way and he choose suicide over life because of it.
The real trouble is you don't know which you are until it is too late.... and you are addicted. If you can accept that life and struggle through the days (go to work) support yourself as you see fit,then I call you a functioning addict. Your life could be better if you were not an addict but you are here.
The non-functioning addict is the one that cannot go to work, show up for appointments, go to class, study, speak the truth to anyone about anything, and is in a constant need of the addictive substance and lies to obtain it and then is depressed at his/her behavior. This addict tries to change without telling anyone, make vows to change but cannot, they still feel they are in control .... and so on until they OD or comitt suicide by some other means.
If you are a young person and see yourself in my son, please ask for help. You don't have to tell your family until later or ever... if that is part of the problem but, PLEASE, understand I would rather have Lucas here with me to take care of than him be dead. My sorrow is more overwhelming than any problem he could have brought to me..... I miss you Lucas. I love you. I think of you every day.
To see more about Lucas's life visit his memorial site created by his sister, Tarlie, at the site listed below.
Memorial Submitted by: Judi Harris